My name is Ciara and I’m currently 26years old and living in Munich,Bavaria-Germany.
I have idiopathic juvenile scoliosis with a double major curve. (Explanation in the previous post)
A review of the last 20 years to get you to where I am now and why.
(Careful, this is a long post.)
My scoliosis was first seen at a pre-starting school checkup. I was sent to an orthopaedic and an X-ray confirmed that I had a curve in my spine. I was sent to the physiotherapist and then to get a small wedge to wear in my left shoe to equal out my leg length. I was told my legs were unequal and the wedge would correct the tilt. I should mention that at the time I still lived in Germany with my parents.
Not long after, we moved to Ireland! Unfortunately my scoliosis was pretty much forgotten because there were so many other things that needed attention so that we could start a life there and no available physiotherapist or anyone with knowledge really. I stopped wearing the wedge too…. bold me.
Fast forward a number of years and we noticed that I was pretty crooked. So off to the orthopaedic and a new X-ray. Yep… Pretty darn crooked at that stage. So my parents and me set off around Ireland trying to find an orthopaedic that had conservative methods of treatment. Nope, couldn’t find one. ALL of them wanted to operate immediately cause the curve was so big. True, my degrees were above operation indication, but I had absolutely no pain or problems!!! Thankfully my parents kept saying no. They also knew that conservative methods were available in Germany and that they worked! But Ireland didn’t believe in braces (corsets)Â or physiotherapy so we were back to square one. One of them also said my legs were of equal length so I didn’t get a new wedge. (Spoiler alert… They’re not!)
After that debacle with all those doctors my dad searched the internet and found a rehabilitation clinic in Germany that treats scoliosis with specialised physiotherapy. Seeing as the irish don’t believe in “voodoo exercises” we saved up and my parents sent me over by financing it themselves. I was there for 4 weeks in November/December 2003. During that time I was taught many exercises to strengthen certain muscles that would help stabilise, support and straighten my back. The before and after pics were great! Even though I was fully grown at that stage I also received a brace (corset) which corrected my posture. I wore it about 23hours per day for 9-10months I think. When I was back in Ireland I didn’t continue the exercises but I did wear my brace…. Towards the end I wore it less and less. It was uncomfortable and annoying.
In retrospect I don’t think I should have been at the clinic by myself. I was 15 and putting all that responsibility in my hands was a bit much. One parent should have been there to learn the exercises so they could continue them with me…. I mean, of course I wasn’t going to continue them on my own. I don’t think that the clinic really understood either. In Germany its normal that girls go there, learn these exercises and then continue them at home with a local physiotherapist who also knows them. I didn’t have that. So in retrospect it was pretty useless all of it. Short term it looked great but long term it made no difference I don’t think. Same with the brace. On it’s own it couldn’t do much because I was fully grown. Perhaps with the exercises it would have helped. Meh, expensive piece of plastic.
Fast forward another few years and I’m in college. It’s summer break and I’m working at a pharmaceutical company in a lab. My back hurts to stand or sit or twist on Thursday and Friday. I had two weeks holidays from that Friday…. I woke up on the Saturday and couldn’t get up. The pain was excruciating! I couldn’t straighten up, I could stretch my legs. I lay there in a foetal position and cried. I spent a good week laying down and hobbling around crouched to get the the bathroom. I was overdosing on ibuprofen and received a stronger tablet from a friend that completely knocked me out! As soon as I could kind of walk again, a little straighter at that stage, I went to the college doctors place. I couldn’t see a doctor because I didn’t have an appointment so I saw a nurse who asked what happened. I said I woke up like this she didn’t believe me. She kept saying I probably fell Friday night and don’t remember (we were in Ireland after all and falling around drunk is the norm) and she wouldn’t believe me when I said I don’t drink and I wasn’t out. She told me that I’m too young for a slipped disc and I should just keep taking ibuprofen that I’ve probably just hurt a muscle or something. So I went back to lying down and flooding my system with tablets. A friend of a friend at the time had a bad back too and went to get acupuncture at a polish ladies house. He gave me the number so I rang there and she said that her master/teacher was there (the guy that taught her and who is also a chiropractor! Bonus!). So I went off to see the polish chiropractor. He looked at my back and said there’s a vertebrae out of place. He pushed it back in and stuck some acupuncture needles in me. Lo and behold, two days later I could walk straight and I was pain free!!! Thank god that was the end of that. The following Monday I was back at work having spent my holidays lying around the house in pain.
About two years after that, I had finished college and was living in Spain working as a volunteer at a donkey sanctuary. It was all hard manual labour in the Spanish sun. My back did give up a little quicker than other people’s would but no pain, no problem. Because I was curious after the two week dislodged vertebrae incident I paid to have my back X-rayed privately. (Long story but it would have been near impossible in Ireland, I tried after the dislodging incident, to no avail). My back was still as it was except that one vertebrae looked a little… Well… Dislodged. Because the previous X-Ray had been almost 9 years prior I can’t say if it was that two week incident or one of the numerous times I fell off a horse or was thrown into a fence. Ah well, I felt fine so all was good. The curvature didn’t get worse by the looks of it.
Shortly after Spain, in November 2012, I moved to Hannover Germany and worked as a veterinary nurse and did a lot of lifting (from guinea pigs to German shepherds or 20kg feed bags). No back problems really. Sometimes a little tired but nothing serious. I didn’t last all too long there and I moved to Munich the following year.
About half a year after I moved to Munich, I sought out a physiotherapist and a scoliosis specialised orthopaedic. I thought it was probably best to start with the physiotherapy again seeing as it was available to me in Germany. New X-ray, same curves. They hadn’t gotten worse. A curvature progression of 1 degree per year is anticipated in most cases. Mine had changed by 2 degrees over 10 years. And that could be considered a measurement error. Pretty amazing really.
At this point in my life, at 24, my back started troubling me. At first I noticed it got tired more and more quickly. I stopped wearing high heels because my back would hurt the next day. I stopped carrying handbags because the one sided weight would strain me. After a while I had to switch from nice flat shoes to running shoes because I needed the dampening effect they had. I only recently realised how much I had given up because of my back. My whole social life got more and more difficult and I would decline offers to go out or go to the cinema or even go to dinner after work because I couldn’t sit or stand that long. Walking trips got increasingly difficult to the point now where I can walk maybe half an hour on a bad day. I can forget hill walking and even simple tours strain me too much. It’s ridiculous!
In a last attempt, hoping the problem was muscular, I was sent back to the rehabilitation clinic for 3 weeks to give my muscles a kick start. That was no fun. I could barely complete all the supervised training and I usually missed the free training times because I had to lie down, I couldn’t stand any longer. I lay down over lunch time, I lay down after training, I spent my time there trying to recuperate so I could continue the following day. The only positive thing that happened their is that I was able to move my right leg again!! I had had a trapped nerve for almost a year (!!) at that point which wouldn’t allow me to lift my leg and made the effort very painful. (Caused, most likely, by a massage I had as the problem started only a few hours after it.) oh and that leg still isn’t right. I can move it again and its not painful in everyday use but if I lift it and try and hold it up it really hurts still. Its also weaker than it was. I think the N´nerve was damaged and it wil just take a long time for it to heal up again.
Story is not over yet. After the failed rehabilitation I got a new brace in the hopes that it could hold me and reduce the pain so that I could exercise…. Nope. Doesn’t work. Now I have another very expensive piece of plastic floating around.
The pain I have varies. There are a few different kinds that I can distinguish between. One is very low near my hip and is a more dumb pain, a prodding, poking pain upon certain movements. It’s not always there. It comes and goes. Another is between my ribs, mainly on the left side, which hurt when I lie down, when they stretch. It’s a sharp, stabbing pain and often catches me unawares when I stretch or move in a certain way throughout the day. It usually takes my breath away. It’s also there when I relieve my back of weight during the day by hanging onto something or putting my upper body weight on my arms and shoulders. It eases up after a short while but it’s right back again when the weight is put back on my back by straightening up or standing. It’ll ease up in that position then again. It’s not constant, just upon a change in pressure. Another pain is similar to the first. It prods and pokes around the middle section of the lower curve. Probably the discs again or that dislodged vertebrae. It also comes and goes. I sometimes have pain in the sacroiliac joints. They can be very annoying because walking is difficult. All those are there again and again and can be very painful but I can cope with them. One pain however is extremely debilitating despite not being very painful. It feels like I’m rusty. My movements are sore and difficult. It’s just extremely uncomfortable, even when lying down. It doesn’t go away. It stays for weeks. It prevents me from sitting or standing long. It prevents me from doing much after work. It’s even gotten difficult to last all day at work, I often don’t anymore. Going food shopping at the weekend is difficult. Basically all the things I should be doing as a 26year old are getting increasingly difficult. I feel like an 86year old.
About a month ago I went to see a specialist near Stuttgart who reiterated what my orthopaedic said that I should be operated on to prevent my back from worsening and hopefully reinstate my life. He also showed me that my legs are definitely different lengths. He sent me to have an MRI of my spine as preparation. The MRI showed various degenerative processes happening. I have arthritis due to the localised pressure from the curves, my discs don’t look too happy and teh vertebrae themselves are starting to twist and slide off eachother. It’s definitely time I have the operation. Once my spine is fused the degenerative processes will stop. I should be in a better shape than beforehand.
In conclusion, I never expected this. I wasn’t prepared for this. I was never told that I could develop arthritis at 26! I thought that if my curve didn’t get worse I wouldn’t get problems. I thought the “worst” that could happen were slipped discs when I was older. I think if it wasn’t for the arthritis I still wouldn’t get the operation. But its too debilitating for me not to. As well as that I know enough to understand that there is no use in waiting for a degenerative process like that to get worse. Its going to get worse and I’m already suffering because of it, physically, mentally and socially. That said I am very very glad that my parents always said no to operations. Now I have made my own adult decision to have it done. After seeing the MRI results I’m positive I’ve made the right decision. I’m currently looking forward to it. It will be painful and difficult but I believe it will be worth it. This blog will be following my trip from this point on.
First on the list is a 900km trip to see the surgeon who will perform the operation. That’s next week. I will let you know how it goes and also explain the operation procedure.